P.s. so sorry for the super late post — this somehow got eaten and only just popped back up!
1. Working on syllabi at my friend Kate’s house
2. Disney party!
So yesterday I talked about dressing my best worsts: my pale, bruised legs and the big birthmark on my face. While those are things I previously didn’t like about myself and have come to love. Today for Dress your Best week, I’m taking the opposite direction, my worst bests, the things about myself that I get a lot of attention for but don’t always love. So here they are: I get a lot of attention for my hourglass shape and the attendant (ahem) boobage that comes along with it. I also get a lot of attention for my red hair. These are things that are great to have and I do love my body and what they do for my looks. But I hate the attention that I get for them. I hate having men ogle me when I’m at work. I hate when men yell at me on the street (two months ago, a street person yelled at me “red in the head, fire in the bed!” It was awful). I hate when I can’t find a bathing suit top that doesn’t make me look like a prostitute, or when I get treated like a slut just for wearing a bathing suit top. Hell, yesterday I wore a scarf as a glorified boob shield just to avoid my own cleavage! But beyond the negative attention, I also really hate the positive attention. I know, it’s warped! But I just get so embarrassed when I get compliments for my shape — it makes me somehow feel less valid as an intellectual and more like some tramp. Issues, right? I have them.
Anyhow, I have a hard time with those aspects of myself and I’m trying to find a way to love and embrace them without feeling self conscious about the attention (good and bad) that I get for them. So today I’m dressing in full hourglass form, showing off my curves in a way that feels ladylike, smart, and classy instead of boobalicious (that’s a word, right?) and slutty. What about you ladies? Do you have the same experience with your goods?
Now I’m off to Disney Day, part 1! I’ve never seen most of the Disney animated classics and a friend, who happens to be a Disney expert, has built a “class” for me this summer where we’ll watch movies, have discussions, and probably make delicious snacks. Fun!